Becoming

This blog is something that God placed in my heart a long time ago. There's something about actually starting what God is calling you to do when it's requiring you to leap out of your comfort zone(s). For as long as I can remember, I had always been the shy and quiet one. Afraid to step out, afraid to step up and be all that I wished I was. I settled with everything. Even things I didn't really like. I grew a false confidence and false sense of identity. On the inside, I was screaming to get out of that and to break free, but I didn't know how. I let fear and self-doubt overcome me. It sounds pretty miserable right? It was now that I look back on it. That is not how God intends for us to live. In him we find freedom, our God-given identity and everlasting joy.

I always think of it as one of those bridges that stretches in between two mountains. You know, the ones that have the rope for rails and sway from side to side with every step you take. On one side, we have our old ways, and on the other side is this beautiful life we could have never imagined for ourselves. The life that was handpicked by God for us. We can't really see the fullness of it from where we start, but it's there. The picture on the other side is revealed a little more as we begin trusting in him and surrendering the things we've been holding onto and walking towards it. It's uncomfortable, you can't even imagine yourself making it all the way across, it makes you want to run in the opposite direction to what you know is "safe", to what is comfortable. The funny thing is, our new lives IN him are the safest. His plans for our lives are so much better than our own. (Jeremiah 29:11) His thoughts are higher than our thoughts (Isaiah 55:8-9) and will always be. He has his hands extending towards us, calling us deeper into him. Letting us know that he IS with us, that we are safe, and he pulls us forward with such grace and elegance. Away to the other side of that bridge. Away from what we thought all that life could be, to something new and so much greater. To true everlasting life and never-ending love only found in our father, Jesus Christ.

The more I grew in my relationship with him and learned who he was, the more he showed me who I was. I know I am not the only one out there that struggles in this area. God has told me that I am here to encourage those that are struggling inwardly and outwardly with this very same thing. Leaving who they were and stepping into who they are. There's a whole entire process we have to go through to become. I think it's going to be an everyday process as we transform and transition. Each new day is one step forward to the other side. I'm going to share my process. Share my journey. I pray it encourages you to start walking across that bridge no matter how much it shakes. I'm here cheering you on from my bridge. Just go. Let go of the rails. Go with your hands reaching out for him. Confidently knowing that he is reaching back.